This week, I lost 4.8lbs!
After all those weeks of not losing any, or gaining a little bit - I have finally had a really good week. My current weight is 192.4lbs, and I've lost a total of 13.2lbs.
The really exciting thing is that if I have another good week, it means that I COULD ACTUALLY BE IN THE 180S by next Monday!
That would be so amazing. I feel like, I'm almost at the end of what I call 'Phase 1', which is getting out of the 200s and the 190s. It's like the introductory phase, that might not feel like proper, proper weight loss because I've spent such a long time in the 190s, going up and down.
But once I get into the 180s, things start to feel a bit different. Man, I'm just so high on this little wave of optimism right now. I've already had a good week of feeling good about myself, and I know there's just a lot more of that to come if I carry on. Things can only get better!
I've been spending a lot of time on the 'Success Stories' section of the My Fitness Pal forum, and it's made me realise that I've forgotten how to even imagine what I might look or feel like as a slim person. I used to think about it all the time, but I suppose I got so used to being my old weight and thinking that I was never going to escape it that I just stopped thinking about it. It's hard to believe that there is a thin person in here waiting to get out. I have no idea what she looks like, though.
I always stare at my face in the mirror and try to imagine what my face would look like if there wasn't so much chubbiness. Seriously, I have one of the chubbiest faces ever. I remember when I got down to 140lbs in 2004, I was getting happier with my body but my face still seemed quite chubby. Here's a photo of me taken in Paris for our first wedding anniversary when I was 21, I think I was about 143-147lbs in this photo (excuse the cheesy pose).
That set of photos from Paris is important because they're pretty much the only evidence I have of me being in the 140s. I think I got down to 138lbs, and then promptly started to just increase in weight over a period of many years until... you know - getting to 205.6lbs on August 27th, 2012. Anyway, that photo is how I know my goal weight is not in the 140s. I have a tiny wrist, maybe that means I have a small frame and I need to lose a little bit more because of that - who knows.
Look at me, getting all carried away with myself because I had one good week of weight loss. I suddenly remembered I'm still in the 190s and that sort of snapped me out of it - I have a seriously long way to go.
But still. 180s. That's something to be really excited about. Hope you all have a great week!